Trishala Dutt shared this memory of her late boyfriend (courtesy trishaladutt)
Strong points
- Trishala Dutt’s boyfriend died in July of last year
- “Today marks a year since the ground beneath me collapsed,” she said.
- “I did a lot of mourning work,” she added.
New Delhi:
Sanjay Dutt’s daughter, Trishala Dutt, who lost her boyfriend in July of last year, open to dealing with the death of the love of his life in a heartbreaking Instagram post on his birthday. Trishala Dutt talked about going into therapy and joining support groups to deal with the loss. Trishala, who is a therapist in New York, revealed that she had quit her job and developed an eating disorder after the death of her boyfriend, adding that she had gradually coped with her mental health issues and in a better space now. In her article, Trishala wrote that she was happy to have some of her boyfriend’s most precious possessions as souvenirs, which remind her of him. Trishala Dutt is the daughter of actor Sanjay Dutt with his first wife Richa Sharma, who died of a brain tumor in 1996.
Here’s what Trishala Dutt shared on the first anniversary of her boyfriend’s death: “Today, it has been a year since the ground beneath me seems to collapse and my life has changed. I have done a lot of grief work – from speaking therapy, to joining specific support groups and being more intentional with how and with whom I spend my time. .- I have also been somewhat absent from social media in the past year.
Losing my mother at the age of eight and working there for more than two decades, surprisingly, did not prepare me to lose this beautiful soul. It is not just the passage of time, you do not get over it or move around just because a year or twenty pass. You have to face the darkest moments and get out of the roller coaster of emotions for the rest of your life. I knew that sorrow was not only sadness, however, I forgot that it came back in the most devious way.
Over the past year, I have cried to the point where I have no more tears. I had to quit my job because how could I take care of a person’s mental health if mine was a disaster? I have had several outages where strangers have come to me and asked if I need help. I also ate everything in sight and gained 13 kg (30 lbs). But it is okay. It happens. It’s the process, and it’s nothing I can’t fix once I’m in the right frame of mind (and I’m happy to share that my mental health and physique have improved so much!)
Furthermore, I am not ashamed to admit that it is because of an incredible therapist, support groups and 3 beautiful friends. Everyone treats loss differently and there is no right way to do it.
However, for me, at the moment, it is useful to be surrounded by things that remind me of him. I have text messages and handwritten notes. I still have his toothbrush, I listen to some of his favorite songs / artists and I have his T-shirt that smells like him. I am very grateful for the time we spent together. He lived his life boldly, out loud, and enjoyed each day in an authentic way. He was the greatest gentleman who always made me feel safe. He made me laugh and liked to joke. He was kind, gentle, thoughtful and always chose to put me first. He was helpful, cooperative and attentive. He trusted me, took good care of me and took great care of my heart. He respected me, never judged me and welcomed me into his family. He never left my side, never let me get upset, or let me wonder where I was in his life. He made sure that I and everyone knew that I was his heart every second of every day. For me it was magic. It was a joy to be part of his life. It will always be part of my journey and my story. My memories are all I have left of him, and I’ll never forget him. I’m half without him, but even with that, I still am and I will always be and I will feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have been hers … like he was mine.
07 October 1986 – 02 July 2019 “
In October of last year, Trishala shared a heartbreaking birthday post for her late boyfriend, writing: “” Not a day, not a second, not a moment goes by without my thinking about you. “
Last year, just days after the death of her boyfriend, Trishala attended a wedding and poured his heart out on Instagram with this note: “It took all the fibers of my being to get up, get ready, smile and attend a phenomenal wedding this weekend of the sister-in-law of one of my closest friends. Were excruciating for me, but I’m doing my best to be well. “
